I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I love Miles with all my heart but he always seems to be preoccupied with other things and has no time for me or even the children. There are times when I just want to smack him on his head and say WHAT ABOUT US, then I remember that I am a Vor lors wife and should act like one. OH I don't know what to do. I wonder if Cordelia felt this way when she married Aral, or if she still feels this way, and I hate to think what Laisa goes through with Gregor he literally always has business.

More urgently is that Miles doesn't talk to me anymore like he once did. Perhaps this lunch with Dono and By will help and then we can talk after they leave. One can only hope...

Dear Sirs,

I request an audience to discuss the arrangments of the garden you wish to have. Does lunch tomorrow sound good? I'll make sure Ma Kosti makes one of the very best lunches. Ta.

Ekaterin

I can't believe it, the kids are getting so big. It seemed like just yesterday that Miles was obsessed with Aral and Helen just being conceived, like a proud Da. I was afraid for awhile that when they were born that Nikki would feel left out, but he seems to be liking his big brother role, aiding his younger brother in getting into something that he isn't supposed to. Yesterday I found Nikki, Aral, and Helen downstairs in the garage playing with Miles' lightflyer when I went looking for them. It was a cute sight really but something like that needs to be punished a little. So when I brought them to Miles for a proper chastisement betweent he two of us, Miles had this gleam of humour in his eyes that anyone who knew him could see right away and Nikki played off of that. I pulled him to the side and told him to act like a proper Da and tell his children not to do it again and instead he gives ME a speech about how children will be children.

Though I guess I can't completely blame Miles though luckily I got to Nikki before he turned it on. I just keep thinking what if it was something big like getting into the wine cellar. I keep hearing Ivan's voice in my head about all the things Miles made Ivan do for him and I shudder at what will happen when Aral get's older and learns to minipulate people better. Though I do love all of them, yes even Miles though he can be sometimes infuriating.

lets see if this works.....